{Choosing to be a SAHM}

I am one of those that has always known I wanted to be a SAHM (stay at home mom, for those that don't know).  Even when I was growing up and I pictured myself with kids, I knew I wanted to be able to stay home with them, if possible.     Thankfully, it is possible and that is exactly what I am doing.    Up until this past December I had a great career that I loved.  I was doing something I loved and was good at, I loved my boss and co-workers, I got to travel twice a month and I had some great perks.  Then on December 7th that all went away.... my company let go of over 60 people in one day and that included my ENTIRE department.  You can read the whole story here.  I was pretty devastated.  I knew that when May came around and our baby boy was born that I would stop working but I never thought it wouldn't happen on my terms and never thought it would happen 6 months early.   All of the sudden I became a SAHW....stay at home wife.    I got to spend the last 6 months of my very uncomfortable pregnancy at home.  I was in Heaven!  I got lost of rest, finished a lot of projects around the house and got ready for the arrival of our baby.  As sad as I was about losing my job, it ended up being a HUGE blessing in disguise.    I have had many days where I miss the corporate world.  I miss lunches at my favorite Houston restaurants with co-workers.  I miss traveling (even though I complained about it a lot of the time).  I miss my projects that I was in charge of and managed for my company.  I miss getting all dressed up.  I miss after work happy hours.  I even miss my dinky cubicle.    But..... would I trade any of that for my life now?  Nope...absolutely not.  I love spending every day, all day with Connor.  I love our routine (or lack of a routine some days) and love watching him grow.   I feel very lucky and fortunate to be able to stay at home with him every day.  My husband works very hard so that I am able to do that.      I know this life isn't for everyone and I know some are not able to stay home with their babies, even though they want to.  So, I try not to take it for granted.    Maybe one day I will want to go back to work.  Maybe not.  Until then I am going to enjoy every day I get to spend with my sweet boy and thank God (and my hubby) that I am able to stay home. :)